When you first dedicate your life to Christ, you may have high expectations of how your relationship will pan out. If you’re like me, you started off on fire for God – finding any way to read God’s word and being consistent in making time for Him. And then it’s almost like there’s a switch that turns off and the consistency goes away. Work, school and other responsibilities get the best of you. You scroll through your social media feeds to unwind and find yourself putting your faith on the back burner. Or you simply become too tired and convince yourself it’ll get done tomorrow.
Do you think this is by coincidence? Well, I’ve learned that it’s not. Once you give your life to Christ, the obstacles are just beginning and there’ll be a constant attack to get you to spend as little time with God as possible – most call it the work of the devil. The more time you spend distracted, the less time you have to focus and worship God, thus the less knowledge you have of God and his promises. I know firsthand what this feels like, I’m just starting to get through the “fall-off” phase and working to stay consistent. But how, you may ask. It took me making a firm decision that I would just sit down and start. I had gotten so far behind in my “Reading the Bible in a Year” plan, so I felt like I couldn’t just pick up where I left off. I read a few blogs and articles online that included some scriptures, so I picked up my Bible and began reading and actually meditating on them -which is something I’m still learning to do. I don’t just want to read His words, I truly want to be able to hold them in my heart. Matthew 12:34 states “…for out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks,” meaning whatever is in you, will eventually come out – both good and bad. I want to make sure that I’m feeding myself the word of God, so when situations arise, God flows out of me instead of the thoughts and words of my flesh.
Are there days where I don’t open my bible or pray or write to Him? Of course. That doesn’t mean my effort is lacking. It happens and the important thing is to not beat yourself up about it. Make the time and eventually, it will become second nature to you. You won’t have to think twice about spending quality time with Him however that may be. God wants you to talk to Him or listen to Him or worship Him, but don’t do if you want something in return – “if I read His word, then He’ll answer my prayer.” Do it because you want to get closer to Him and want to have an intimate relationship with Him. You’ll begin to see a change in you and that is the first step in the rewards of following God.